I have never really feared a pregnancy before, even with my first. I think I was actually the calmest with Sariah during labour than with any other baby.
2 days after I found out that I was pregnant with baby #5 I was at a pinewood derby since my husband is a cub scout leader. I was sitting behind some really tall person so I decided to hop on over to the next chair and at that moment JJ was pulling out a chair for one of the kids to sit on and I fell down really hard and it hurt really bad. I am not an emotional person (even during pregnancy!) but I had to quickly leave the room because the pain was so bad I could not stop myself from crying.
I hardly ever go to the doctor but I went that time because I just needed that pain to go away. They couldn’t do an x-ray because I was pregnant so I don’t know if it was broken, fractured or just bruised. The doctor said that the only safe narcotic during pregnancy is codeine which I happen to be allergic to so all I could take was extra strength tylenol. The doctor said that it probably wouldn’t do much and she was right.
The pain was unbearable for about 3 weeks. Fortunately my sister was here for 3 of those days so she helped out. Then the pain gradually got better but even now if I sit flat on my bottom for more than an hour my tailbone hurts.
I am really worried about when the baby gets bigger and its head is pushing on my tailbone and I am also fearful of the actual labour and my tailbone being injured again.
There is one other thing bothering me. It is just really hurtful that I have had 4 kids and yet neither my mom nor my mother-in-law have come out to help after they’ve been born, eventhough they have been invited to. Everyone I know has had that, even mom’s who live on different continents come out to help their daughters or daughter-in-law’s. If you have been in that situation please let me know so I don’t feel like the only one I’ve handled it the other 4 times so I know I can handle it again this time around but it really is just hurtful.
It wouldn’t be so bad if my husband could just take sometime off work.
… I guess sometimes you just need to vent …